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This video really remind me about alot of things and it really show us that God's love is always with us, that he cares for us alot.

 Well left less than one month is the start of o's and prelim is going better then i expected. Even though i duno how do some papers like for science. I'm going to choing from now till then end of o's really don't want to fail it but at least get a reasonable score.

It is you. I'm going to wait for the right moment.

Happy Birthday Kana. Haha kena sabo by dinnish to dance and the song is indian song. It sounded like country song to is like damn hard to dance. Anw after all the party we went to a cafe to slack and it was fun saw this group of ang mor like drunk and this couple were kissing like nobody business. After all it was damn funny.

But then at night zahir got drunk and we took like 20 min? to like get cab and all. He is damn heavy and vomitted like hell. Well let some people disappointed again sorry ): even though you don't care about me anymore. But i will keep my promise from now on. (:

what does it mean now? ain't this funny right now standing between two poles?

 My finger got sting by a bee while i was waiting for bus. It was damn suay to be stung. It is swollen,itchy and i can't really bend it. Today had my ss and chinese paper 2 and it was quite ok la just that for ss i didn't do my SEQ cause i didn't study at all. Other then that today paper were kinda easy haha.

Will you continue to believe in me? Cause i will continue to believe in you as i trust you.

Time really go pass real fast. And i still can't forget about you. But i know someday i will forget about you.

 Today was Feetwashers final against FC2024. We came close to make it a draw. But we lost 3-2. I'm proud to be in this team as we are playing for God and not for our own personal pride. Really want to thanks all the supporter who came down to support us. Also for the NE ppl that came down. Confession to make i did play dirty during the game and the penalty which i gave was unintentional.

After finals we went to eat dinner at a coffee shop behind PHS. We celebrated Chee Hwee birthday there and he was really very shock cause he thought we just ordered simple tze char food. But we order chilli Crab for him. Don't worry second round is coming. You sure cry FOR SURE HAHA...

Today service was really a bad service for me. Morning i went to scott's team briefing then i was like finding for daryl around nexus and ....... yeah. Well after that went to africa room and find his team while i was there i can really see that his team is super quiet compare to my team which is a bunch of crazy ppl. After they when for their break i was still in the room thinking about why is it still in my mind. Carmen came to me and i told her what happen that make me so emotional. She say that was the past and you really should overcome it by now and don't like emotion get over me so easily when it happen, it's already more than a year now. And during the worship i really lift my heart to God seeking him to guide me through this period of prelims and my own personal issue.

Worst is during sermon i was like A.D.D i can't really catch what pastor shirley was trying to say and i was back to my thinking mood again WTH man. But i still know that God is with me and through him i can overcome it :) 

 today CG wasn't that great. there is only like 6 ppl that came for cg. I just feel that this CG isn't the one we had when we first restructure. Just see what happen in the recent months i can see that we are getting more and more disunited but i believe after we had pray today for about an hour we can really see the difference in the group. That we will be the ones correcting the young ones if they do something wrong cause when we do correct them means that we are showing love to them. So GOD use us as we want more of you and less of us lord. Use us to lead the younger ones as we want to see a new generation of leaders rising up. 

Lord continue to use me and the St Gab ppl as we pioneer St Gab. That we want to see a CG size in the school. 

was back from shepherds retreat for 2 days ago. Was really tired and got to for exam after it. But i really enjoy the times i spend with my unit and also with other brothers. And i can't believe my shepherd and scott was like the entertainer before praise and worship and they were them funny.

i have been telling myself not to do this and that anymore but there is just some stuff which i've been struggling :( God help me in this few areas and tear down the wall inside me. 

I need you right here right now beside me ):

 Recently i have been rather sloppy in what i'm doing. Always late for school and getting scolded by teacher. And getting nag nowadays ):
but i know Gods word is moving even thought CG was not good. But i feel that unity must be always firm in what we are doing and the words that we use to say and comment about other ppl. It can be a positive and a negative comment but most people will give a negative rather then a positive. Even we people say we want to change but it will really take time and also in our own private life. So God use me more and more nowadays. Completing my goal now is my main purpose and others stuff God just help me leave them aside till i have finish my O'S.

 OK first of all i admit it has been a long time since i do my qt. And i repent.
Well while i was doing my qt this word just hit me. Which i had say before be a change agent. i really want to be a salt and light in my private life. That i want to be a change agent in my family , to the people around me like my sheep then to the group . Through this then i can achieve great things. That i'm not serving cause i am ask too but i am serving cause i'm God's servant and this is all because i love the almighty father. That when i believe in him i will achieve greater things. :)
God use me to finish pioneering St GAB.

Today was really a up and down day for me. So many things happen around me. 
I really want to choose God instead of all the things around me. Cause i want to grow more in him until the end time come cause i'm his servant. (: 






Is it just me or you that is feeling weird.

 I was totally blur when i drank but drinking below 18 is illegal and it's not a salt and light for God. And i guess i just have to quit drinking. 
It is the starting of AUG prelim coming in  a month time. Man stress is increasing but i know God will be always with me sharing my burden so i won't feel that stress and continue to serve him.

It is very hard to find someone that is trust worthy.

i'm tired of it.
Still thinking of letting go.

 

 Harry potter is a waste of money man.. This movie is totally no link at all man

One more week left to rendition, and st gab have fruits coming lately but it's slow which is good. I really got to apply what i learn when i watch fireproof. I don't want to be a person which need to be called then will go outreach but i want to be a person that will just go outreach without any calling and be the person that will initiate things. 

 This is so great i'm under quarantine for 3 days. So gona be damn bored at home.